Tuesday

Ok, so it's been way too long since I last posted. I'm not doing so well right now. I'm home today because I wasn't feeling good, while I feel bad for not being at work because I'm still new there. But I think I know what is really wrong with me. I'm homesick...terribly right now. I'm wondering what in the hell is wrong with me, what am I doing up here driving in this craziness. What was I trying to prove? I can't do anything, gotta stay in my lease until next May at least. But I want to go home, things made more sense, I knew where all my stores were, etc. Do I regret leaving? I have to say no. I wasn't going to get my promotion due to the economy and then they started lay-offs and furloughs. But I can't say that if someone were to call and say we're willing to pay you x amount above what you make now, I couldn't say I would decline. I guess I need to give it more time though. I am making new friends up here...but I am still homesick, and it has nothing to do with the rent's, lol. I still haven't been to a ww's meeting yet. I will be there this week though.